Mom was in a car accident while I was at drivers ed. I love how nobody told me what was going on or where we were going until I started panicking and screaming at them. The car's totalled. Yeah, well. Looks like my bank account is going to be raided, too.

Johnny Cole's mom was my driving instructor today. He called her in tears because of some shit his girlfriend did. It was really hard not to yank her phone from her and talk to him myself. Then I thought, "Is that what I did with Shane?" and I really began to feel down on myself.

My sleeping pills are in mom's car. Tonight is not going to be cool. At all.