No Randy's party for me last night. I talked to Shannon for a few hours, so it was like I was there, anyway.

Mom's downstairs cooking bacon. The smell is enough to make me want to vomit.

Heard from Shane. Seriously. Him leaving is bittersweet to me. I'm glad he's going because I know how much he cares for his mom and I'm glad he's going because he's hurt me so much.. but I just love him so much. And, I'm going to miss him. At the same time, though.. I'll be happy to never see his face at shows again. I'm tired of hiding behind the Marcs. And I'm tired of the awkward.

Uhhhm, yeah. Ben. Make-out buddies? Blah. I'm not sure how he assumed we'd backtrack that much just by hanging out once, but .. yeah. I'm not a piece of meat, man. And, his comments definetly don't show that he appareciates that.
I'm committed to something. And there's no way that I'd put that in jeopardy for something as trivial as Ben. Especially when this is the first I've talked to him in over a year.
Yeah, so I cheated on what'shisface with him. So what? Shane got over it and so did I. Well, maybe not completely. And, I know Shane's never really been forgiven me.. but he got even. And revenge is always sweeter than acceptance.