Always happens. This is really the last time that I listen to a boy.
Went to the puppy prison and put the application in. Puppy!
Convocation is tomorrow. I need a pair of shoes, so a-shopping we will go.
Offensive? Yeah, that's me. I don't think before I speak and I don't let myself get hurt because I run away too quickly. People are so overrated. I better get used to doing calculus and going herping because that's all I'm going to be doing this summer. Fuck my birthday and friends making all sorts of plans. Nothing is ever going to happen except I'm going to get tired of everything. It's times like these I wish I put in my application for Berkeley summer.
When people are at the bottom of the stairs and yell to the rest of us civilized folk, it never sounds right. Echoes, muffling.. it's all so familiar.
I found a story I wrote in 7th grade. Julia, you thought I was .. good?
I have been waiting for you, biting as you taught me to.
Sunday, May 27, 2007 10:32 PM
I had to work on Friday. Pat wanted me to babysit Joe, so I did and got an extra $20 for it. Before work, I had an appointment and I managed to annoy the shit out of some rednecks with my talk of animal rights. Mom and I had Chinese. It was hard to concentrate because these crazy white thugs came in and drank ice water with lemon. They left right before we did and all piled into a mini van. It was great.
Jenelle's visit was .. awkward. I know nothing about children, but I do know that disipline is needed and that she and Jon are not really disiplining their children. That's all I'm going to say since Jon and Jenelle read this. I really don't want anyone calling my grandma and bitching at her. Again.
Yesterday, I played Zelda all evening and mom, Rich, and I had Mexican food. In an attempt to tire the puppy out, I took him for a walk. I'm scared of going out of the house at night.
Kroger at 11pm? Great. I shook my bottom at strangers.
I have been waiting for you, biting as you taught me to.
Thursday, May 24, 2007 3:55 PM
Feeling quite down and out. After last night's fall out with Sam, I'm just not mentally up to the task of .. being nice.
Most of my socializing during the week takes place during Public Speaking class. For two hours, I can be as loud and obnoxious as I want.
Michael explained global warming to me with gerbils.
My grandma is walking around the house with her oxygen tube thing dragging behind her. What she doesn't know is that the tube has wrapped around various things on the floor and everythis is being dragged behind her. What she doesn't know is that the cat was playing and bit a hole in the tube. What she doesn't know is that, more than anything, we wish she was dead.
Maybe that's a bit extreme.
Michael and Frank waited outside with me for almost thirty minutes after class. Grandma was late picking me up because she was too busy cleaning the house. Jenelle's coming tonight. Of course, I'm dreading it. Of course, all of us are dreading it. Thank God Chad works all night. Thank God I have class in the morning. And, thank God more attention is being paid to her visit than to the frozen mice I plan on hiding in tonight's "dinner."
Once I do my Calculus homework, things will be fine.
I have been waiting for you, biting as you taught me to.
Wednesday, May 23, 2007 3:36 PM
"He says you demand too much attention? You're just clingy. Everyone knows that."
<3 Joshh.
Spanish final. I'm so glad to be done with high school.
I need to get tickets for Warped Tour.
Edit://
So, they were all right. Every single fucking one of them. And, I can't say that I actually regret befriending any of them. The times were good, and I'm sure that's all that matters.
So, I create drama and I'm quite useless. What's new? I ruin every relationship, no matter what sort it is. Best friends? Check. Boyfriends? Check. Family? Check, one, two, three.
Give me rampant intellectualism as a coping mechanism.
I've been writing a lot more. Nothing to send to Julia and nothing really worth mentioning.
I have been waiting for you, biting as you taught me to.
Tuesday, May 22, 2007 8:55 PM
American Idol is a waste. Still, I want Blake to win.
Nate, I can't make a great and long entry. I don't have the time, the patience, the attention span. Just make your own stuff up.
Cal ate watermelon and it made my mom entirely too happy.
Brutus and Adrian are both shedding. It's not going too well.
Signed up for summer classes. Yay for Calculus.
Friday: PotC with Bethany Saturday: PotC with Marc, concert in Flushing.
I have been waiting for you, biting as you taught me to.
Saturday, May 19, 2007 11:14 PM
Rich, mom, and I went herping today. It was pretty kickass. We didn't find anything, but I learned that crayfish are neat looking and that tadpoles are disgusting.
I've eaten way too many cookies today.
I have been waiting for you, biting as you taught me to.
Thursday, May 17, 2007 9:21 PM
Turns out, Renno broke up with me because my dad is black and because I have pet snakes and a pet rat. It's pretty lame. I'm not sure if I'm more angry or disgusted. Either way, I can do better.
Today at lunch I started to read Choke and listened to some Poison the Well. Sure, there were other kids around me, but, truthfully, I didn't want anything to do with them. Definetly not today.
Public Speaking afterwards. Yes, I freaked out. Yes, I worried people. Everyone was asking what was wrong. I burst into tears and hit my head on the table.
Afterwards, I helped Nate through a crisis. A girl crisis. That's really not my best area, but he really seems to like her. And, as long as we're great friends, I'll help him out. Not to mention he's pretty adorable. Like a big cuddly bear. lolol
Tonight was the Palahniuk reading in Columbus. I asked two or three weeks ago if I could go and nobody bothered to make plans for me. I mean, I desperately wanted to go. Meet my favorite author? Get something signed? Listen to him talk? That's enough to make me freak. To make it worse, Chad did his best to make me feel guilty for asking to go.
I have been waiting for you, biting as you taught me to.
Monday, May 14, 2007 1:38 PM
The play went well. Gene and Carla showed up. Talk about awkward.
Then, we ran home to grab some clothes, and went to Rich's. We had gas station pizza and popcorn and it was great. <3
Saturday, mom and Rich went to Wal-Mart and I watched Talledega Nights or whatever. They brought home cake. Sam was supposed to come over, but he didn't for some reason or another. That evening we went rock hunting. Well, mom and Rich did. I went salamander hunting. And rock skipping.
Yesterday, Sunday, Mother's Day.. whatev.
I have been waiting for you, biting as you taught me to.
Friday, May 11, 2007 1:28 PM
Renno broke up with me. Total waste of time, if you ask me. There's not much to say, but I require too much attention. Sorry, I'm not a fish. Can't stick me in a tank and forget about me.
NHS induction yesterday. Went bowling and ate pizza. After that, it was home and then Chad and I went to the dodgeball tournament at the college. He tried his best to make me feel guilty for asking to go.
Shopping for today. Had to dress up for NHS photo and tonight is the Spanish play. Ew.
I have been waiting for you, biting as you taught me to.
Sunday, May 6, 2007 5:58 PM
With each book, Chuck Palahniuk gets better.
I just got Rant on Friday, but I'm already almost through. It's not as disgusting as Haunted [note: 'Guts'], not as backward [lol] as Survivor, and finally a different sort of violent than Fight Club and Invisible Monsters. Rant touches on so many different things: time travel, epidemics, and the quest for reality.
Chuck Palahniuk continues to change the way that I see things.
I have been waiting for you, biting as you taught me to.
Saturday, May 5, 2007 1:39 PM
I'm going on a date.
What?
Edit////
He picked me up, we watched the movie, and we held hands. He put his arm around me. The movie ended, and when we got to the car, he hardly said a word to me. He took me home.
lololz.
THANK GOODNESS FOR THE CURE.
I have been waiting for you, biting as you taught me to.
Thursday, May 3, 2007 5:52 PM
Somehow, when the only reason for your boyfriend to like you is because you both like Lord of the Rings.. hah.
I'm super hungry. There wasn't any food after the anime club meeting.
Renno brought me home. Got caught in traffic. I went to hold his hand yesterday and he said, "Why are you touching me?" and I almost peed myself laughing. Today, at least, he figured out that I'm not a porcupine.
I love to embarrass Sam when he's around old girlfriends. There's nothing better than bringing up the sex stories he's told us.
I have been waiting for you, biting as you taught me to.
Wednesday, May 2, 2007 2:53 PM
Renno gave me a ride home.
Supposed to take a Chem test, but hung out with him instead. The professor wasn't in his office, anyway, and that's where he told me to meet him. Sorry, I waited about thirty, forty minutes. That's too long, yeah.
I have to get my crap ready for a demonstration speech tomorrow. Lame.
I have been waiting for you, biting as you taught me to.
Always happens. This is really the last time that I listen to a boy.
Went to the puppy prison and put the application in. Puppy!
Convocation is tomorrow. I need a pair of shoes, so a-shopping we will go.
Offensive? Yeah, that's me. I don't think before I speak and I don't let myself get hurt because I run away too quickly. People are so overrated. I better get used to doing calculus and going herping because that's all I'm going to be doing this summer. Fuck my birthday and friends making all sorts of plans. Nothing is ever going to happen except I'm going to get tired of everything. It's times like these I wish I put in my application for Berkeley summer.
When people are at the bottom of the stairs and yell to the rest of us civilized folk, it never sounds right. Echoes, muffling.. it's all so familiar.
I found a story I wrote in 7th grade. Julia, you thought I was .. good?
Sunday, May 27, 2007
I had to work on Friday. Pat wanted me to babysit Joe, so I did and got an extra $20 for it. Before work, I had an appointment and I managed to annoy the shit out of some rednecks with my talk of animal rights. Mom and I had Chinese. It was hard to concentrate because these crazy white thugs came in and drank ice water with lemon. They left right before we did and all piled into a mini van. It was great.
Jenelle's visit was .. awkward. I know nothing about children, but I do know that disipline is needed and that she and Jon are not really disiplining their children. That's all I'm going to say since Jon and Jenelle read this. I really don't want anyone calling my grandma and bitching at her. Again.
Yesterday, I played Zelda all evening and mom, Rich, and I had Mexican food. In an attempt to tire the puppy out, I took him for a walk. I'm scared of going out of the house at night.
Kroger at 11pm? Great. I shook my bottom at strangers.
Thursday, May 24, 2007
Feeling quite down and out. After last night's fall out with Sam, I'm just not mentally up to the task of .. being nice.
Most of my socializing during the week takes place during Public Speaking class. For two hours, I can be as loud and obnoxious as I want.
Michael explained global warming to me with gerbils.
My grandma is walking around the house with her oxygen tube thing dragging behind her. What she doesn't know is that the tube has wrapped around various things on the floor and everythis is being dragged behind her. What she doesn't know is that the cat was playing and bit a hole in the tube. What she doesn't know is that, more than anything, we wish she was dead.
Maybe that's a bit extreme.
Michael and Frank waited outside with me for almost thirty minutes after class. Grandma was late picking me up because she was too busy cleaning the house. Jenelle's coming tonight. Of course, I'm dreading it. Of course, all of us are dreading it. Thank God Chad works all night. Thank God I have class in the morning. And, thank God more attention is being paid to her visit than to the frozen mice I plan on hiding in tonight's "dinner."
Once I do my Calculus homework, things will be fine.
Wednesday, May 23, 2007
"He says you demand too much attention? You're just clingy. Everyone knows that."
<3 Joshh.
Spanish final. I'm so glad to be done with high school.
I need to get tickets for Warped Tour.
Edit://
So, they were all right. Every single fucking one of them. And, I can't say that I actually regret befriending any of them. The times were good, and I'm sure that's all that matters.
So, I create drama and I'm quite useless. What's new? I ruin every relationship, no matter what sort it is. Best friends? Check. Boyfriends? Check. Family? Check, one, two, three.
Give me rampant intellectualism as a coping mechanism.
I've been writing a lot more. Nothing to send to Julia and nothing really worth mentioning.
Tuesday, May 22, 2007
American Idol is a waste. Still, I want Blake to win.
Nate, I can't make a great and long entry. I don't have the time, the patience, the attention span. Just make your own stuff up.
Cal ate watermelon and it made my mom entirely too happy.
Brutus and Adrian are both shedding. It's not going too well.
Signed up for summer classes. Yay for Calculus.
Friday: PotC with Bethany Saturday: PotC with Marc, concert in Flushing.
Saturday, May 19, 2007
Rich, mom, and I went herping today. It was pretty kickass. We didn't find anything, but I learned that crayfish are neat looking and that tadpoles are disgusting.
I've eaten way too many cookies today.
Thursday, May 17, 2007
Turns out, Renno broke up with me because my dad is black and because I have pet snakes and a pet rat. It's pretty lame. I'm not sure if I'm more angry or disgusted. Either way, I can do better.
Today at lunch I started to read Choke and listened to some Poison the Well. Sure, there were other kids around me, but, truthfully, I didn't want anything to do with them. Definetly not today.
Public Speaking afterwards. Yes, I freaked out. Yes, I worried people. Everyone was asking what was wrong. I burst into tears and hit my head on the table.
Afterwards, I helped Nate through a crisis. A girl crisis. That's really not my best area, but he really seems to like her. And, as long as we're great friends, I'll help him out. Not to mention he's pretty adorable. Like a big cuddly bear. lolol
Tonight was the Palahniuk reading in Columbus. I asked two or three weeks ago if I could go and nobody bothered to make plans for me. I mean, I desperately wanted to go. Meet my favorite author? Get something signed? Listen to him talk? That's enough to make me freak. To make it worse, Chad did his best to make me feel guilty for asking to go.
Monday, May 14, 2007
The play went well. Gene and Carla showed up. Talk about awkward.
Then, we ran home to grab some clothes, and went to Rich's. We had gas station pizza and popcorn and it was great. <3
Saturday, mom and Rich went to Wal-Mart and I watched Talledega Nights or whatever. They brought home cake. Sam was supposed to come over, but he didn't for some reason or another. That evening we went rock hunting. Well, mom and Rich did. I went salamander hunting. And rock skipping.
Yesterday, Sunday, Mother's Day.. whatev.
Friday, May 11, 2007
Renno broke up with me. Total waste of time, if you ask me. There's not much to say, but I require too much attention. Sorry, I'm not a fish. Can't stick me in a tank and forget about me.
NHS induction yesterday. Went bowling and ate pizza. After that, it was home and then Chad and I went to the dodgeball tournament at the college. He tried his best to make me feel guilty for asking to go.
Shopping for today. Had to dress up for NHS photo and tonight is the Spanish play. Ew.
Sunday, May 6, 2007
With each book, Chuck Palahniuk gets better.
I just got Rant on Friday, but I'm already almost through. It's not as disgusting as Haunted [note: 'Guts'], not as backward [lol] as Survivor, and finally a different sort of violent than Fight Club and Invisible Monsters. Rant touches on so many different things: time travel, epidemics, and the quest for reality.
Chuck Palahniuk continues to change the way that I see things.
He picked me up, we watched the movie, and we held hands. He put his arm around me. The movie ended, and when we got to the car, he hardly said a word to me. He took me home.
lololz.
THANK GOODNESS FOR THE CURE.
Thursday, May 3, 2007
Somehow, when the only reason for your boyfriend to like you is because you both like Lord of the Rings.. hah.
I'm super hungry. There wasn't any food after the anime club meeting.
Renno brought me home. Got caught in traffic. I went to hold his hand yesterday and he said, "Why are you touching me?" and I almost peed myself laughing. Today, at least, he figured out that I'm not a porcupine.
I love to embarrass Sam when he's around old girlfriends. There's nothing better than bringing up the sex stories he's told us.
Wednesday, May 2, 2007
Renno gave me a ride home.
Supposed to take a Chem test, but hung out with him instead. The professor wasn't in his office, anyway, and that's where he told me to meet him. Sorry, I waited about thirty, forty minutes. That's too long, yeah.
I have to get my crap ready for a demonstration speech tomorrow. Lame.
