So many things get in the way of friendship: love, snakes, other boys, the price of gas.. I've ended things with friends over less. Sam and I have had a number of fallings outs. Today, I fear it may be permanent. It's all because he loves me and I don't love him or vice versa. No matter what happens, I'll forgive myself. Self-redemption is one of the few things I'm good at. The other three being baking, hugging, and talking.
The puppy that grandma put her application in for was put to sleep right before we got to the shelter to visit her. As upsetting as it is, I'm sure that it was meant to happen because of someone's scewed sense of empowerment and the want of me to become a better person. Whatever. The dog is dead and I'm not ready to move on.
I'm tired of disappointment. So far, I know nothing of it.
Friday, June 1, 2007 9:34 PM
I hung out with Billy today. We went to Wheeling Park and played on the swings and then had Chinese food. Then, we came home and watched some television and played in the rain. Best date ever.
He even borrowed Lindsay's Audi convertible..
Graduation. I <3 my new dress and shoes.
I have been waiting for you, biting as you taught me to.